Glad that "you" don't know her

As you can see..
"you" can be nickname for a person or group of
certain people..for me..
good thing also they didn't know
that this blog exist...

the her that i am referring to
well.. I really admire her..
she has the looks, the brains, a cool attitude and personality
for short your dream friend, daughter, or friend.
in my eyes she is that way..

I am really thankful that the "you"
doesn't know her.. ehheeh
i am kinda tired you know..
of being compared to.. good thing
i was already used to it though i
don't have a good feeling about it.. and
kinda irritated to it..

You can say i kinda grew up to
being compared to other person..and i was
always being on the wrong side of it..
for every mistake i did..

maybe that was the reason why
i have some kind of inferiority complex..
yep.. believe it or not i have..
and also because "you" wants me on top

maybe that also the reason i don't
have low voice or i am shouting..
because that was my old environment...

maybe i am selfish because..
i wasn't taught to be selfless..
altough i think much selflessness is selfishness..

maybe the reason why i am so talkative..
is for that i seek attention? or just because
i was born like that?? hehe for me i would choose the
second one...

and maybe i have learned to answer
you when you're going to "blah blah mode"
is that maybe i am so tired of being able
to listen to you and you don't even try
to listen to me...

but on the other hand.. it was my fault..
sorry self.. i am so stupid that i didn't know
that i was influenced too much.. sorry self
for my all time idiocy for my clumsiness..
and sorry self for not being the person
whom they and the "you" want to be...

i was a child back then..
yeah my fault..i don't study too much back then

good thing i don't have in my mind
that this blog exist because "you"
would say that this is 'kaartehan' or
just one of products of my foolishness...

Sorry for the words.. kinda angst isn't it?
and i was off topic.. and i am going ewww
now i read it ugh! this not kinda me
to be all carried away and be down like this..

anyways thanks for reading!
god bless..

5 DAYS TO GO SCHOOL DAYS NA!

Sorry..

hi guys..
sorry if i hadn't updated for such a
very long time..
since it is our vacation..

well.. hmm
i was carried away.. literally..
by playing gunbound and as well as
reading mangas, fanfics, listening to music
and watching vids...

ehhe also i am also at our store
every afternoon.. so kinda hard to
find time for writing.. since i don't master time management..
sorry...

And you know what!
yay my lil cousin is here.. i owe you guys another apology
since i didn't post it.. well he was born last
January 26 ehhe you know.. he was the first
baby i really can say cute.. i wonder why that is...

To all II-Franklin sorry.. if you guys read here
Sorry talaga.. hinde na ako ngyym pero try ko
pasensya n rin kung wala na akong contact sa inyo..

Well happy vacation!

Banner..

Yep.. I have changed my banner...
I have spent an hour and a half doing this..
a tsubasa banner...

really it is fun to do...
and my other banner as well (the first one)
oh.. before i forgot.. my first banner is posted below..
Thanks!

by dark_innocence

Money talks..

One of the most irritating time!
allowance giving this year is really a pain!

subtracting an amount in which it was stated that
it is VOLUNTARY but is COMPULSARY..

what the??
where did you hear that VOLUNTARY is the same as COMPULSARY??
it is redundant... very and absurd

actually, you ask me..
they don't have any freaking right to have it that way!!
It is our MONEY not theirs..
and again VOLUNTARY IS DIFFERENT FROM COMPULSARY!!

if you will instruct something..
then have it clear..
if you say voluntary then voluntary
and compulsary if compulsary....

since we ARE JUST students we have no right to oppose...

Back to normal..

It is really great..
That the friend whom I have known is back!

Just as I thought..
you just need space and time..
You are now the real you!

You are now not the person I am telling in Turning back..
I am glad.. really..

YEHEY!!! cheers!

Nothing to do..

After 1 week of all of the hardships..
After 1 week of all of the exams...
After 1 week of enduring knowing our scores..

PHEW!!We have nothing to do..
Hey! Yeah right for me in the first day after exams..

but for the next days.. I say we really do something
our class did something productive..
helping for a special occassion- i'll say what is that occassion soon-...

aside from that..
if we don't help to the preparations
of that special occassion, we play scrabble-very fun..

the scrabble eheh I can still remember..
bringing up childish fights for a game.
just becuse of having scores up and down..
and the loser has a consequence..

after that we play squabble..-using the tiles from scrabble-
we are SO noisy playing that.. so busy looking for words to appear...
you know what we tried to have the minimum letter of 6
guess what!!! i had a nosebleed...
all of us actually.. but too quiet for us because of thinking..
the loser has a consequence as well..
consider it as one of my fav parts..

then a memory game..-again use of tiles form scrabble-
too quiet..but nice one..
i am not so good at a memory game specially scrambled ones..
nice for me loser no consequences.. YEHEY!!!

of course my most fav..
playing the word factory...
such fun a game.. two thumbs up..
even our adviser played! that's the time when i have just learned how to really score in this game..
super and very brain twisting..
try this game.. it is somewhat addictive..

forgot to mention..
I brought my Tsubasa that time..
hahaah because of me they are addicted to it also!!

lots of games... but still nothing to do
meant boredom is there so
we do is lay down and chit-chat or sleep...

one realization as well..
you know.. you can do many things with tiles of scrabble..
very creative really..!!thanks for reading

by dark_innocence

Exams..

I know this is a late update for me...
It has been 2 weeks at least when it happened...

The last batch of the brain twisters exams..
It really is hard that NAT ---it is shocking..

But luckily I have passed at the least....
Not bad ne??

And also lucky for me to pass the 4th quarter exams..
which is i can say really really many times harder than NAT..

Bad for me... on the other hand
the NAT ate up 30% of my periodical grade!!
Nevermind of it.. for as long as it is a passing score!

Guyz.. you too I hope you pass to you exams
GOOD LUCK!

by dark_innocence

WhaT the..??

Hey guys!!
Long time no see..

Sorry it really took me a GREAT deal
if LONG time to update..

anyways i'll try to have post as much as possible..
many days i didn't post..
many stories to tell..

-just give me time to remeber it-
-stupid me-

-by dark_innocence

Haayy... Salamat....

Yehey!!!

after a week everything is fine
whew!

I survived a week without my computer
and those times I've realized how much
it really means to me...

heehe so here i am today
posting again

yesss!!!
so later again

I am just going to do something okay? :)

Last n nga 2..

mrame pa sana ako ikwekwento
kaso nga lang eh gabi n dito

hahaah madae p akong proproblemahin...
never mind lilipas din toh..
maghihintay lang..

ako rin naghihintay sa mga commnet nyo!

bukas ulet.. sarap talaga maglabs ng emotions
unleash.. super me! -eew-

thanks for reading!
God bless always..
Ingat p lage!!
at ung comment ko!!

*Ms. President wag mo ko ililistah sa noisy!!

TuRniNg bAck..

What's happening to you?!?
are you really the friend i have met?
maybe there is something that happened..
i don't know still... but i will be here..i have have

i have a feeling that you know something..
is happening in your environment..
i hope you will return to normal...

okay.. i admit you really have turned to someone i don't know..
and everyone noticed it as well...
but to tell you the truth i really think that there is a reason..

i don't like to see and hear my friends hurting each other..
in a any way.. verbally or not

Maybe you're thinking me as an idiot..
because i treat you in the way you don't like maybe always...
Cornering me always eh?

but i mind now but i am stupid
so i will forget it again -stupid me!!-
i will always treat you the same ALWAYS no matter what!

oi!! people this is a blind spot!!
don't ask me!!
ahah this is a puzzle...

ReAliZaTionS...

today i've had my realizations...

1. less trust -i dont know why can't still understand-
2. if you can do it now then don't wait for tomorrow
3. don't borrow things that belongs to the people who distrust you
4. have things always alert
5. talk to much so you will not have a voice and not be written in noisy..
6. bad mood keeps me quiet

I've cried this afternoon because
I have felt everything is crumbling around me
without any warning....
it will pass and yet it cannot be turned to its original form

hey! before i forget
thanks for the concern and understanding
for the people who have tried to comfort me!
I appreciate it!

It'S YouR owN ChoIce

I've tell you guys to do it..
all the time...
you don't want then..
I've let you do so because i know
we can do it in just a short span..

Then look at the things now?
You want it?
now i will not pursue you or remind you

It will now be your choice
as much as possible i don't want to have it
on weekends because i'll have it finished then

you don't have nothing to do
so it will not be my fault
if we don't have nothing to present..

have a way in this..
i can't always remind you because
of what happened in this day..

Don't Have A voice...

yep...
I don't have that much voice today and probably on
coming days....

Part of my bad days
but one good thing about it

yay!! I am not on the noisy list!!
yay!! whheeett-whheeww!!

Just happy for my achievement and all
Really everything has positive and negative sides..

Bad Day...

Catching up on me...
this year..
bad omen is present as ever..

if you've read my earlier post then you'd understand
then after that.. in my way going home..
I've almost lost my cellphone.

Good thing it's not..
tomorrow will be another day
I will not be able to swim because I really don't feel very well..

I hope this bad days
will turn to good then
to better then to a best one...

I don't know why....

can i say some vulgarity in here??
I need it!!! okay?!?

DAMMIT!!!!!!
and
TAKE THIS SHIT OUT OF MY LIFE....

it is always been my fault..
my fault...
eventhough it's not...

I took good care of it...
that is what they have said and so..
that's what i did...

But it doesn't make any sense at all...
I just do what I was told
and yet things turn out differently ALWAYS!!!

I broke it a 12,000 digital camera...
I don't know why...
but as far as I know it's on the lens
and I've researched it on the net and guess what
almost all of them had a same case as me..

No need to tell them that..
they would not care to listen...
For them I am just a liar..

A LIAR!! AN UNTRUSTWORTHY LIAR!!
YEAH! FINE!FINE! IF THAT'S WHAT YOU WANT!
WHATEVER WILL HAPPEN IT WILL ALWAYS BE
AND FOREVER BE MY FAULT...

it will not change..
that's the undeniable truth I've just realized...

I can not argue anymore because I-AM-TIRED
it will make more problems...
and have me as an UNRESPECTFUL child
in which I am just stating the facts I want to express..
but as what I've said

THEY DON'T KNOW HOW TO LISTEN!!

just because i borrowed it's my fault
I know, what you're thinking I am just finding others fault..
be open-minded! for your sake!

Isn't it what you always feel when they accuse or blame you?
can't you understand that when a mistake is made it
is EVERYBODY''s DAMN FAULT?!?

1. yourself- the one responsible
2.family- why did they let you have something if they distrust you?
3. strangers- why in the world they dont reach out and help you?!?

I am tired now...of all this..
fine okay it's my fault..it's my fault that.. that..
all of the money you have saved..
and all of your hardworking and everything..
was taken into the MALFUNCTION state
hope i can find a way to restore it..

hahaha maybe I could collect all my debts from others.
heeh +_+

this day really SUCKS!!
also this is the day that i've really have felt guilty

-breaks me into pieces-
so many..

aside from this..
I wanna blame many somebody out there
but I cant

if i have foreseen this..
then
I would have force the many somebody
to do what i want...

3 PosTs....

Okay see you again tomorow!!

Bukas n lang ulet...

mghahanap p ko ng mga pwede i-post..
Alam nyo c Ms. President lage ako
inililista sa noisy...

Ouch yon!
hahah kasalanan k nman eh!

cge paalam n pouh!
God Bless lge..
salamat sa pagbisita..
Ingatz :)

Get well okie?!?

hey..
guys..
I am here again..
aahh!! I am going to be guilty!!
waahh!-sob-

Anyways..
hey to you guys I am pinpointing sorry...
because i can't finish and concentrate on the movie..
can't be helped

I know it's not your fault..
its part of life to have that..

But one wish maybe?!?
can you please be well A.S.A.P??
oh my gosh..
I am asking too much..

well just nevermind if you can't
what more important is
you can be well
and have a part on the movie!

Just get well soon!
okay?!?

PrObleMs reallY HaVe a way uNto Me AfteR all...

Just as I didn't expect...
Last week I thought everything would be fine..
But then..

my fate changed..
the movie is still in process....
still in the start..
and my mind is like going to explode..
I don't know what I am going to do!

Can someone who can read and hear me help me?!?
I really need it!!
Post it on the comment!!

Maybe what all I need
is confidence and trust..

and faith in God thateverything will
be alright...

Go me!!
crazy me!!!

VegEtAbLes are sometimes rotten....

In this sense I am really pinpointing SOMEONE

that person's words really got on my nerves on
its last end...

how dare she...
this is the second time I have her on my post
because she really is getting and boring deeper on nerves......

comparing?!?
for everybody's sake! she doesn't have any right to do that
4 is better than 5?!?

First, wearing a mask saying we're better
and then what? behind our back
it's the opposite?

It's her emotions or conscience..
if what she says is true or not
It's up to her!
But I hope she could be tactful!

I love vegetables depending on how you cook it
But still it can't be helped
If it has a damaged part it would be rotten
Really ROTTEN!!!

Well I don't know about that..
Let's just see..
I know she should or would regret it...
She should change...

time for DeaTh NotE!

As you can see
I am somewhat an addict for death note....
but you cannot see much of it here but from time to time I will insert it..
talking about that anyone that favorites L??
Can you give me a pic?

Or a a vid about him or
yaoi of him and light :P

Before I forgot the L Change the World is showing yesterday!
Hope I can watch

Nah.. nevermind..
anyways.. This wil be my last post for today....

oh yeah! nga pla
may quiz sa Bio 2morow! Dba kuhaan ng card?
ipapasa ung methodology sa english!!
magchechek ng quiz sa algeb!!
mgpapasa ng activity sa computer..

Hala ang dame p plang gagawen
Cge pouh bye bye
Ingatz n lng lge
at God bless alwayz okie!

Hey.. get well soon!!

Julianne!!
What happened!!

Why did you have a fever!!
Why!!

okay nevermind..

Just get well soon okay?
Don't worry about things just take care of yourself...

HaPpY BiRtHdaY!!!

Yep!! HAppy Birthday!!
The other day which is Friday, February 8th
We have celebrated Ms.Jinky's birthday!!

Happy Birthday -belated- Ms. Jinky
I wish you a good life and happiness!!

Yay!! We have celebration woo-hooo
Eat cake
and presentations!!

It's really fun... :)

Prayer..

Wherever you are now.....
I pray for you...
to be happy..
I also ask you not to too be much worried about little Aris...
We'll try our best to take care of him okay??

Wherever you are I wish you happiness....

It really hurts....

For everybody I am just an

arrogant....
bossy....
competent...
anime-addict....
tactless....
hot blooded.....
ill tempered....
brat...

I know that's what everyone thinks... or that's what I think
Your actions shows it clearly..clearly
Sometimes I don't know if you are really with me or just playing along afraid of what will be my reaction.... thanks for the considerations and concern -if you really are-

Don't you know that it HURTS!!!
I will admit yes it does hurt me really....
I don't know if it hurts badly or not because... becoz I think I am slowly becoming numb of what I feel I dont know the cause but still.....

I am just a HUMAN!
I tell you "Things are not always what they seem"

If you think I am overly writing what I feel or taking it just like for pity effect or a kind of joke
Well..it's your decision
But I now tell you it is not..

Unposted Posts for a week...

Its been a week...
And I didn't post anything...

It's kinda tiring when nothing to do..
Well I should start posting NOW!!

waaahh!!
Please help me to improve my blog!
thanks!

Last po na 2!

Since last n post ko na 2!!
mgtatagalog n kouh!!
slamat pouh s lhat ng mga ngbsa...

sa Sususnod pouh ulet
sna pouh m2lungan nio kouh sa pg build ng aking munting blog

tnx sa lha t tlaga

Everything are not always what they seem..

You see others happy deep inside they don't that's how it goes for all of us

You always say I am angry but I am not you always misunderstood me...
You never tried to in the first place..

In this world sometimes you have to wear a mask so you could be protected but if you wear it that tight with presurre you migh tnot be able to remove that on you own...

Clazrum is d best!

Everybody in th room is good um best I should say from the adviser and to the students and everythings.. I am happy really in this batch

I just have things to say... especially to the someone who is caged with beliefs
I have it will not affect anything because of your principle
I do not have personal things with you to discuss but as a friend yes
Trust me you have to be free because if not something will happen not good likely...

I know you know who are you.... sorry but please have faith that not all is not fake
and true because there are different people in this world that even if you change there will always be a someone who could have different opinions and personality...

Addicted..... added to my hobbies

This blog I didn't expect this to be this good
I think I am addicted to it like eating a chocolate with unlimited supplies
an I think I will classify this as my hobby??

What do you think??

May things turn out well...

I hope things will turn out well especially to my Tita who has just had been able to bear a child 6 days ago and still suffering into its side effects and hope things will turn out well to for my another Tita who has a fever i think because of stress..

I also hope that things will turn out well in my:
-eating my mangoes
-condition of my fishes
-grades
-projects
-interpersonal relationships
- plans in going out tomorrow

Why?Why did things turn like that?

I really am guilty for the earlier actions of mine especially in our last time I was unable to feel the time pass by but I felt something but I really don't know what. Anyways I am asking a Why question on this post.. Why did she not came back to us?? Well sorry to whomever this person is....

Why?
Why she didn't tell to us? we found her and yet seems like she forgot us

I didn't expect it because she always seems to remember but this days seems that she is somewhat very caring to some things that she forget others.. another thing I don't like about her is that she is too much outspoken to the point in which the person she is pointing too is offended and another thing is that she is very miticulous (is the spelling right?)

I just really have to let it out coz of what happened today i was or I am irritated for her action towards us today.... i wanna ask her Why did it turn out like that?

Arts Appreciation....

As what I have said earlier I have turned the Death note into our project for all of my members there our props are only 2 Death notebooks. And also I need an adult version of the main male character... tnx

Death Note

For this past few weeks I have been developed into be having addicted to this Death note..
And for a week now I have been sad for L's death both in the manga, series and the movie
Everything in this series is good with all of the twists that i've been influenced to have our own version for our project..

Death Note is really something will al the brain twisters put in there and the battle of Light and L it's just that Light forced Rem to killl L but still Light died becuse of Near and of Ryuk. The other side of me is that i like the Light and L pairing what's happening to me?? But I really like them both together and for those MisaLight fan sorry I am not fond for them. For all who haven't watch this Deah Note you should try it!

Looking for someone

I really am looking for someone...
Someone who could I really trust because seems that everybody likes to betray me
Someone who is really my true friend who will not leave me no matter what
Someone who understand me of why i am doing this and that and
Someone who will accept me for who i am and not for what i am..

I don't know if I can find this person but I hope I can find you soon...

a sleepyhead....

WaahHH!!!!!! this day is just getting worse and worse so btw i'll tell you a story...

"Everyday a court of royal blood people gathered in a large castle. They are the future kings and queens of their own kingdoms. These pitiful people have to listen to lectures and blah blah all day. One afternoon a lecturer caught a beautiful princess closing her eyes because of the stress she came the week and days before, she does that eyes-closing-not-sleeping act to relax her eyes but seems that one don't know. That one called her "antukin" or sleepyhead, it just so happened that the princess is in bad mood so that thing added up..

The princess admitted she was indeed closing her eyes and almost at sleep but it is just because it was over and said dismissed.. She was offended when he said that because she was really in that bad mood and trying to be quit and find peace...

But in the end after the princess pout she just decided to go to some friend princes and princesses of hers to have her bad mood let go..."

So how did that gO???

Who am I?

It's a shame that I can't find myself or who am I... I just know myself by name.
I am not sure either what my personality is ....
This post sure is short.. better think of something more...